Sadness that he couldn't be
Like this for me and yet
Sadness in parting turns
To happiness that I was a part
Of his growing and learning.
C- sounds happy and for that
I smile genuinely, letting the sparks hit
And softness grow in
My eyes though he cannot see it.

“You currently appear invisible to StevieRay “.
I can’t be healthy, he’s dead you know,
So I says “I love you darling, see you someday”
Then I took StevieRay from my IM list today.
Just now. 3:15 p.m.

I have shit to deal with and I’m dealing with it,
And it feels fucking awesome.
I am finding peace in my heart finally,
My strength I never knew was just that deep.

Sir, I have decided
You have no chance.