Birdie

huge emphatic sighs from beside me;

my body is sore as she pressed hard

against my hip, to live under my skin

submerged full-body

I’ve never been a strong swimmer

treading water

my arms my legs 

always moved too fast at first 

lungs panicking, I fought

to calm breathing I had to count

in 1, 2, 3, 4; out 1, 2, 3, 4

limbs following 

where my mind took them:

it’s been years 

since I was truly ‘in’ water

submerged full-body

aside from sitting in a spa

recently

almost two hours

and my skin never puckered 

body craving the moisture 

“It’s all in my mind, so don’t be unkind…” ~ Love and Rockets 

bug in thuh soup

shit girl, 

ya ain’t nothing

ta no-body

ya ain’t special 

ya ain’t even priority 

fighting’ fuh ya-self

just make ya a 

bug in thuh soup