In stillness I paused, and from restlessnes I step forth into the day, Shivering and silent, dreaming again, wide-eyed.
"Just when you think she's yours, she's roamed to other shores."
"good feeling, won't you stay with me just a little longer..."
Sunday, August 24, 2003
They ain’t gonna see me.
I ain’t gonna let em.
Who they to d’mand.
I give and I gives freely
To those I see fit.
Not you loathsome sonso’bitches.
Heart afire, embers glowing, buried deep.
What’s the point if we all gonna die anyway?
To live, honey, now stop your cryin’ and
Grow your baby Cynder Lynn.
Hard heart, come back to momma,
You don’t need all them, just that one,
And memories of long, puckered scars that
Shine beautifully in you mind.
I have laughed deeply, and I will continue to do so.
Because the world is beautiful in body and fleet of heart,
And I care.
I ain’t gonna let em.
Who they to d’mand.
I give and I gives freely
To those I see fit.
Not you loathsome sonso’bitches.
Heart afire, embers glowing, buried deep.
What’s the point if we all gonna die anyway?
To live, honey, now stop your cryin’ and
Grow your baby Cynder Lynn.
Hard heart, come back to momma,
You don’t need all them, just that one,
And memories of long, puckered scars that
Shine beautifully in you mind.
I have laughed deeply, and I will continue to do so.
Because the world is beautiful in body and fleet of heart,
And I care.
"Sad veiled bride please be happy, handsome groom give her room...Loud loutish lover, treat her kindly for she needs you more than she loves you. I know it’s over, but still it never really began…"
I am just a small speck of a thing in the infinite possibilities of the universe. And if an even more insiginificant grandiosity washed over me for just a very split-second, well then...
"It’s so easy to laugh, it’s so easy to hate, it takes strength to be gentle and kind…over and over."
I am just a small speck of a thing in the infinite possibilities of the universe. And if an even more insiginificant grandiosity washed over me for just a very split-second, well then...
"It’s so easy to laugh, it’s so easy to hate, it takes strength to be gentle and kind…over and over."
The ebbing tide eats away the island one grain at a time,
Like the deep sense of loss that grips my soul.
I didn’t need this – lonely contemplation – not now.
I need to be around skin and bones and a voice not my own.
Speak of trivial things, speak of deep issues,
Just…please, speak to me in the confidentiality of friendship,
I cannot lose another.
Worry is in my nature. I want to be a good, kind, and caring person. I want to be whatever you need from me. Let me try? Things just fall into place sometimes, for no reason whatsoever. Strange, it's never happened like that before. Is it the calm before the storm? Or hard years rewarded.
Why would I leave you? Even in your imagination? The road has been long, it has has been difficult, but we are changing and can handle what dreams may come.
Like the deep sense of loss that grips my soul.
I didn’t need this – lonely contemplation – not now.
I need to be around skin and bones and a voice not my own.
Speak of trivial things, speak of deep issues,
Just…please, speak to me in the confidentiality of friendship,
I cannot lose another.
Worry is in my nature. I want to be a good, kind, and caring person. I want to be whatever you need from me. Let me try? Things just fall into place sometimes, for no reason whatsoever. Strange, it's never happened like that before. Is it the calm before the storm? Or hard years rewarded.
Why would I leave you? Even in your imagination? The road has been long, it has has been difficult, but we are changing and can handle what dreams may come.