I saw death in the face of
My brother pleading. I am
That ready to live, to be happy.

Though open to what may come,
I was not looking, was not ready
For this, the strength of things overwhelming.

You were looking to have fun and I
A brief interlude.
Lay it out vulnerable and naked,
Your needs, your want, your vision of
Things to come. It is best before
I fall much further.

Not Control, just a good grasp and understanding.