Thursday, June 11, 2015

dark black gumbo

It had been raining torrentially, days too cold for Texas in May.

One morning, there were ducks in the yard. Not out back in one of the newly sprung ponds, but out front in the middle of the spongy expanse of St Augustine. Two young, beautiful Mallards, perhaps a mating pair, bathing. My own lady birds watched casually from the front window, no particular interest in things with feathers. I stopped to admire with them.

After years of drought and water conservation, even our lakes are overfull, spillways Rubenesque; the Trinity has breached its banks in the middle of a concrete city, a beautiful exodus daring man to encroach, and the dam at Bastrop broke, the lake emptying. It was far enough from Houston that only land was hurt, but ominous to see the bottom of a lake once full.

June finally arrived. We finally got sun last week but the heat came with it, and suddenly it’s an overbearing 95 and my hands burn on the wheel on the drive home. Heat. I recall huge cracks in the dark black gumbo we called land in the '70s growing up. It'll be a summer like that. 

Perhaps we’ve grown apart, my first love, the Texas heat and I. Perhaps I'm realizing I'm a woman full grown and some physical labor, though still good and right in my mind, over the years, has become somewhat beyond me. Definitely though, it’s the love bites from the Mosquitoes that adore me, leaving me low, and slightly fevered.

Though not as low as those dark days of torrential rain.