oh to be the cream

the nearer I am to ether, the

 less consumed am I with those

 there already, or lovers past, passions

connecting to an eternal 

other;

           wrapped in self

contemplations less fragmented 

but prefer the resonance of

my own deep breaths

rattling in my chest 

girl, you’ll be a woman soon

When I first bought my house in Texas, it was May. I’d sit at the kitchen table with the back door open, watching my girls in the doorway watching the rain, turning to look at me in wonder every few moments. They had played wild every moment since the fence went up, no leash tethered from my wrist to their harness. 

I wanted to open the door today and watch the rain here in Portugal, but it isn’t the same. There’s no green grass out the window, only cobblestone roads and neighbors that live too close.

The day is just gray, no sweet girls to observe, to adore.

we all age

The concepts of time and age are fluid, out in ether beyond my grasp, but a rock in my gut at the same time. 

We all age, but do we? Really? 

Xgen

 Lost but never found

Yet always knowing where we were

Working to fill the days

And buy the milk

The music that sustain/ed us.

“ And when you really-really need it the most, that's when rock and roll dreams come through” ~ Meatloaf 

in winter, Evora

it’s more damp than cold

laboring breaths of air too thick

sleep, deep, a clammy sweating

waking in a not too early morn

that’s overly dark, echoing drops 

pooling water on tile darkening 

streaks on the walls from the window 

home

tried it on today, home, the 

word, the ideal

is it Texas, place of my birth, my

coming of age, Where the hours grew to

years then deaths, Where I played 

in dirt and dreamt, fought to be

is it northwest Where my

father remarried resettled, found

new family, new life

is home a place, Where blood resides

fixed Where things are stored

transient Where I lay my head at night

Where I’m going

Where I’ve just left 

is it Where I’m from

Where I live now

home seems a memory 

not yet come forth