Sunday, February 11, 2024

girl, you’ll be a woman soon

When I first bought my house in Texas, it was May. I’d sit at the kitchen table with the back door open, watching my girls in the doorway watching the rain, turning to look at me in wonder every few moments. They had played wild every moment since the fence went up, no leash tethered from my wrist to their harness. 

I wanted to open the door today and watch the rain here in Portugal, but it isn’t the same. There’s no green grass out the window, only cobblestone roads and neighbors that live too close.

The day is just gray, no sweet girls to observe, to adore.





Monday, January 22, 2024

we all age

The concepts of time and age are fluid, out in ether beyond my grasp, but a rock in my gut at the same time. 

We all age, but do we? Really? 

Friday, January 19, 2024

Xgen

 Lost but never found

Yet always knowing where we were

Working to fill the days

And buy the milk

The music that sustain/ed us.

And when you really-really need it the most, that's when rock and roll dreams come through” ~ Meatloaf 

in winter, Evora

it’s more damp than cold

laboring breaths of air too thick

sleep, deep, a clammy sweating

waking in a not too early morn

that’s overly dark, echoing drops 

pooling water on tile darkening 

streaks on the walls from the window 


Monday, January 08, 2024

home

tried it on today, home, the 

word, the ideal


is it Texas, place of my birth, my

coming of age, Where the hours grew to

years then deaths, Where I played 

in dirt and dreamt, fought to be


is it northwest Where my

father remarried resettled, found

new family, new life


is home a place, Where blood resides

fixed Where things are stored

transient Where I lay my head at night

Where I’m going

Where I’ve just left 

is it Where I’m from

Where I live now


home seems a memory 

not yet come forth



Tuesday, December 05, 2023

beautiful girl, love your dress

 

but….I am 
            my age
we all
           age

skin crepes 
jowls appear 
weight comes
          or goes 
sight …
           hearing diminish
hair grays

I cannot regret
           the hours 
           the losses
           the traumas
           the joys
           and love
things what got me here