singularity dark

in My life

there is no god

creation

religion

only the spirituality of a 

Oneness

an existence in 

singularity dark

Glory

Hey hey my my

 I wore black so long 

I thought my favorite color was gray;

Approaching light

The full spectrum comes into view 

preferring not to

living in the white space

between lines, between words

between the micro dots of ink

on paper, on flesh

where we pause

for breath, for cognition

should pause, but rarely do;

from the fringe, the shadow

unseen we peek, observe

wait to step in

should step in, but rarely do

would prefer not to

walk away Renee

entering April

Laura Renee…

fighting fierce

not on your own terms, sadly

but against the gaslighting

that was Mother

observing from a distance

loving you was easy

you were beautiful

even when your sharp mind

muddled; and you had no path

your ashes interred

in the arms of Brother

our stories 

gone 

with my own mind aging

the longest goodbye - a shit haiku called "ereyesterday" which is an actual word

a three year plan is

bullshit when you're ready to go

the day before yesterday

it's goddamn fucking cold today in Texas

 there’s an ache

where my spine hits my skull

but just to the left

a throbbing up a tenseness down

into my shoulder my arm

along my torso it falls flitters

loose loosely away and back again

grasping thrashing

reattaching it coils

around my belly my chi

 

it’s the years months days hours

the milliseconds accumulated

piling pushing forward and through

 

always

forward

always through

exhaustion

 

where whence how

why

does the soul manifest in the flesh