Sunday, November 10, 2024

looking deeper looking past

there’s no getting around this

Portugal - at least where I live now - 

has seen better days


at first I thought it wild, simply 

unkempt in a historic sense: 

sitting in chipped tile bench

in a park established a

century and a half past

I was left to wonder what

grandeur the city once knew 

but newness, idealization 

a sense of wonder 

has given way to daily life


the derelict homes graffitied poorly

walls streaked with damp 

paths overgrown and randomly kept

broken benches never fixed

broken lights never lit

bins overflowing 

litter in the streets

in the greenway along

the Medieval wall where I walk

daily 

bright ideas established 

never maintained 


a lacking 

of pride in work unfinished 

and a mix of happy angry people 

and clothes that never quite dry




existing is a chore

I think I forgot to enjoy my life 

in hindsight

I would go back there

to my forties to

my thirties, my twenties 

most especially my teens 

in hindsight 


frame of reference

my

frame of reference 

exists

in a different country 

in a different state

of mind;

logic

doesn’t exist

here

Sunday, September 22, 2024

night and day

 two streets over

my apartment off Largo dos Penedos

on the second floor 

is dry; there’s no constant barrage 

of black flies

my towel dries overnight 



alone is not lonely

after you

I was never good 

with another body

in my bed

sleeping


Thursday, August 22, 2024

morning ritual

she eats faster than I can make my coffee 

then takes my place in bed

that tiny strip along one side 

where she allows me to sleep 

expecting me to squeeze into a snuggle 

while my coffee grows cold on the nightstand