the future's open wide

I left a piece of me in 2003

it wasn't minute

or in any way insignificant

it was my life, the way I lived it

my paradigms, the things I held

in my grasp, fast and true

it was when I realized

our song was really my song

all along

...moving forward using all my breath... "Melt with you" ~ Modern English

me talk real

always remember…

you are not special 

you are not priority 

…except to your pet

yestermorrow

I’ve been waiting hours 

for you to wake up. 

the few of you who knew him

March 16th can suck an egg

it’s too heavy

the lives I buried

if I could set them down?

just long enough

to catch my breath?

Birdie

huge emphatic sighs from beside me;

my body is sore as she pressed hard

against my hip, to live under my skin

submerged full-body

I’ve never been a strong swimmer

treading water

my arms my legs 

always moved too fast at first 

lungs panicking, I fought

to calm breathing I had to count

in 1, 2, 3, 4; out 1, 2, 3, 4

limbs following 

where my mind took them:

it’s been years 

since I was truly ‘in’ water

submerged full-body

aside from sitting in a spa

recently

almost two hours

and my skin never puckered 

body craving the moisture 

“It’s all in my mind, so don’t be unkind…” ~ Love and Rockets