collecting
ceramic birds
wet socks
sand
and fur
living in the white space
Identify the goal.
List actions items required to attain the goal.
Anticipate challenges.
Work each action item.
Tackle any challenge.
Tackle any unanticipated challenge.
Be flexible if the path to the goal changes.
Be flexible if the goal mutates.
This will ensure you achieve your desired outcome,
but not always.
There is an unknowable variable at play.
This variable is the will of others.
It’s okay to want conceptually, but not to want specifically.
Take a deep breath.
Be open to the possibilities before you.
in a place where I can’t breathe
the weight of nothingness
reaching in overlong, reaching out
gasping, grasping air in huge gulps
fistfuls of ether dissipating
eroding into a half-lit dark
everything is damp, cold with it;
flesh, cloth, moisture-clouded glass
lungs; things grow in crevices here
in the place where I can’t breathe
tomorrow will be 22 years since you’ve been gone:
I wonder how you would have aged.
where would you be in the world, where would I?
could the world have been different?
or was your passing a fixed event, destined?
does life unfold the only way it can?
could? has? will?